and I am scared. SCARED! We have never been this pregnant before, and frankly, I've never gone this long during a pregnancy without someone sticking me with a needle or checking in there for some reason. Now, normally, the results of these weren't good news, but at least it was NEWS. I have had 10 days of nothing! Not hearing from a doctor, nurse, or phlebotomist and it is a little eerie. Our appointment is at 4:15, which seemed like a good idea because we wouldn't miss much work and I was being practical. WHY didn't I schedule it for first available???
The only thing helping me keep my head on straight is all of the symptoms. The nausea when I don't eat something every hour and a half, the bloated feeling that does not go away, the indigestion, the TERRIBLE skin (yes, it has actually gotten worse), and the lower back pain by late afternoon. I am convinced these are there to assure me that the little bean is hanging in there, growing strong. I of course, however, have my moments (many) where I think we are doomed. What if they don't find a baby in the sac today? What if the baby stopped growing after the last ultrasound? Alas, I have 3 and 1/2 hours of torture left before the Appointment.
I know I write this into the abyss right now, because very few people know we are pregnant. I haven't made this blog public to anyone until we decide it's safe. So for those who read this in the future and didn't know me all that well... bet you didn't think I was this neurotic did you? :)
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